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[21 May 2005|11:45pm] |
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So the stress is overwith. it feels good to relax....
well not completely but at least the party portion of it is.
Yesterday was a hectic day but it went good i invited too many people and like 5 people uninvited showed up. well whatever can ya do? and pretty much everyone invted came exept for an occasional few. it was very good everyone danced there assess off and went to the bon fires where i smoothly started some smore making, it was just a good time..
mike brought me some pretty flowers.because hes just awesome like that <3.
it was about 80% sophmore. lol. and no real big drama occuredand it was a fun time indeed.
*and YES believe it or not people a fun time can be achieved without the alcohol and pot.sorry if you think it is "dumb" or "pointless" without it as i heard many people say*
now whether or not i do it again next year..ha well we will have to just see next year....
afterwards Katie,Charli,Justine,Kera, and Rachel P. ended up stayin overnight and helping me clean this morning. gracias muchachas =)
i have to just add that Erika Lynne i love you and im sorry you are hurting dear <3
i have afew pictures which i took from little miss thing and i have other people sending me others which ill add later....
..so life is fine. thats the best word i can use for it. in the last month i have been at one of my absolute lows, i keep getting sick and right when i think its all going good it just turns around and slaps me in the face and its just really sad. i always ask myself why arent i just normal? and why dont i have regular teenage problems why does it always have to be blown up to such a dumb extent which always leads to doctors?im just filled with alot of sadness and anger right now and not even anger towards anyone just like idk myself, but did i even do anything? whatever its stupid to complain about something on a livejournal so ill stop.
I <3 You Mike.
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| Lets be nothing..I heard it lasts forever.." |
[01 May 2005|12:34pm] |
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I just got my camera all fixed up and all the pictures finnally downloaded right.
so heres some random pics from like November till now..
Enjoy...
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MANNY ROCKS THE HOUSE!!!!!!!!
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| "its just the price i pay...." |
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Fill This Out PLEASE!! :D
1. I ______Rachel.
2. Rachel is ______.
3. Rachel needs _______.
4. I want to ______ Rachel
5. Someday Rachel will ______.
6. Rachel reminds me of _______.
7. Without Rachel _______.
8. Rachel can be ________.
9. Meeting Rachel is ________.
10. The worst thing about Rachel is ______.
11. I am ______ Rachel.
12. I think Rachel should _______.
Cheer up mya. :)
mike <3333 x 93465764554
It was recently Reece and Charlis Birthday!
Happy Birthday!!
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spring break was great i went with justine to Arizona and we stayed at a hotel for the first half which was fun we did some singing for some random old people and well i burned and justine nicely tanned of coarse in the day time we basicly relaxed by the pool in eighty degree weather. then at night we got primped up and went out to eat. it was very fun. the second half of the trip we went to justines condo , that was good fun too. we did alot of stuff too much to write about. the last night we went to this very pretty resort place and went on a gondola ride, it was nice exept usually it is for couples lol. overall a great trip exept i burned and my suitcase barely made it home.it was awesome i cant really sum it up for you.
then yesterday when i got home mike came over for a bit. i missed him alot lot lot lot lot lot.. :)
yesterday was also Morg's Birthday ~Happy Sweet Sixteen~
today is well ok. not the best day of my life. some people were oh i dont know meaner than the usual? idk. sometimes people know how to bring others down. not to mention tommarrow i get to spend the whole day at the doctors office and get like idk 876876864896329798719 blood tests done. i swear it never ends, right when i think things are okay and goin on track something happens just to mess it up..
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[14 Mar 2005|10:41pm] |
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so my last entry was kinda a drag.
Lately life has been good.
Friday i spent with mike, charli and ray and we went and listened to music and then went out to dinner at Ruby Tuesday and after that was . yeah. not getting into it. hah.
Saturday i slept in till about noon and i had nish's party and after that charli ray and mike came over and yeah. i found a bunch of jewlery in my sisters bed.
dont know how that got there...
Sunday i had a family party. studied my ace off the whole day for stupid chemistry, which i am still failing.
i failed the test today..
but it wasnt a bad day. Muyassar came back to school <3 whoo i missed her in those halls
11 HUGS!
then after school i got a ride from Ray and mike went out for dinner with me and my family to bookers. it was good.besides the facts that justine and morgan interogated my family becasue they werent coming along too lol. my family likes him. thats definately plus. then just me and him hung out which was awesome like always.
i really do believe i have fallen for him.
Charli got the job same with chanti at panera bread! WHOOO!!
CONGRATS MUCHACHAS!
Tommarrow me, morg, reece and justine= cheer on Jakey!whoo!
Mike, you rock my socks <333
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[01 Mar 2005|04:56pm] |
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i had a bad day today......
^Mya always did know just the right way to cheer me up :)^^
i feel somewhat better..
THE END.
<3 erika lynne
oh i heart mike<3
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| oh lord, i say it a lot. |
[20 Feb 2005|10:02am] |
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so im incredible confused, eithor my computer is being swedish or im imagining things, but eithor way my last entry just doesnt exist anymore? lol weird ace stuff i tell ya.
but life is good right now. simple and sweet.
its weird but i think that somewhere within the last oh i idk four months or so i think i have grown up, im not so much the shallow, close minded being anymore i think that act just gets old really fast.
i think muyassar has alot to do with it. people just dont understand how damn precious life is and when you see something that that you are so certain is over and then you watch, and pray and you see how it can turn around. its effin amazing. idk just thought i would share that.
oh and i really like mike. :)
*cant get this song out of my head*
"Heart Of Gold"
I want to live,
I want to give
I've been a miner
for a heart of gold.
It's these expressions
I never give
That keep me searching
for a heart of gold
And I'm getting old.
Keeps me searching
for a heart of gold
And I'm getting old.
I've been to Hollywood
I've been to Redwood
I crossed the ocean
for a heart of gold
I've been in my mind,
it's such a fine line
That keeps me searching
for a heart of gold
And I'm getting old.
Keeps me searching
for a heart of gold
And I'm getting old.
Keep me searching
for a heart of gold
You keep me searching
for a heart of gold
And I'm getting old.
I've been a miner
for a heart of gold.
<3
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[17 Jan 2005|01:21pm] |
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so my computer has been down forever and a half but life has been just okay.
lately i did alot. Thank gosh finals are over, for now at least...
so Friday i went out with chanti,kera,katie,charli and ate at the china buffet lol it was good exept there were the five of us crying in the middle of the place. haha, but oh so cute. then we saw the school play where justine met up with us, i have to say it was the best one yet. and yeah then charlis house where we slept. it was good good.
Saturday i went with justine and saw In Good Company it was good i thought, then went back to her casa.
yesterday sat at home i ddint feel good so i rented some movies sometimes it is really good to have down days..
today i am goin to the show then i think i might hit up justine and morg and see what they are doing
the weirdest thing happened this guy like fell asleep at the wheel and went airbourne into my fence outside my house and hit a tree and well no theres uh ..no more fence.and my parents think the guy died but i hope not.
so yes i guess everything happens for a reason and thats what i have to keep on believeing...
yes and i sure hope that erika lynne is feeling better <3
and Mya you will go to the concert and if i hear one more thing about miguel my ears are going to bleed..haha just kiddin.. eh kinda<3
<3
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[06 Jan 2005|11:16am] |
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well my computer hasnt been working for quite some time now and i have a problem with keep on updating this stupid thing..
so im not really gonna get too into whats been going on i have been at the gorgeous Myas house alot with the little erika and new years just passed it was good i went to a hotel with reece morgan justine and vinnie it was fun indeed exept i somehow ended up having to sleep on an effing chair?
but yes finals are here . sick. and i keep avoiding having to study which i really have to do sooner or later. tonite i might go to a youth group charlis if it is still going on. and yes this weekend should be good..
justine and sean now..hmm never saw that coming i do have to say.
Mya is doing great, well of coarse she is she is a strong little tiger that one never would give up i tell you :)
and i was talking with erika this morning and i dont know erika if the person will ever REALLY know how much we care and i think it is best to keep it in for awhile no?
well other than that my life is eh pretty bland right now. i have came to the conclusion that i shouldnt take everyones feelings and problems in like i always do i get so warped into everyoines problems and always worrying about how i am making other people feel, and my mom is worried about me right now which i hate when she worries. she thinks i havent been myself lkately an di know i havent i dont know why but i have just been feeling down. which will lead to other problems like it always does so idk..erghh...
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[21 Dec 2004|10:13pm] |
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so school is out and i am mrs.busy pants
sunday me and the lovely erika did myas room from like 2 till about 10 man if that doesnt express our love then wheew i dont know what does?lol
love=labor i guess
yeah so yesterday we had our christmas dinner so me katie chantel kera charli and nisha went to fridays and then walked over to steak and shake lol good times darnit. then me charli and kera slept over at katies last night.
Today i shopped with me madre for a bit then my mom picked charli up and we stopped at the beutiful myas house for a visit she is looking more wonderully rader than ever if i do say so ;) then me nish charli and katie went with chanti to her church little santa clause thingy it was very cute cute =D and so now i am home yayuh and i have a million and ten things on my mind AHH im going to go insane..
but yes on that note christmas is here lalalalalalaaa
Mya i am so proud of you dear <3 x 867677657657776 etc etc
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[11 Dec 2004|05:28pm] |
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so yesterday was a good day it was firday whoo whoo..
i got home from school and talked with the beautiful erika and mya, which always makes me so incredibly happy.
Mya isdoing so gosh darn good im so proud of her she walked with a cane up the stairs yesterday and her heart is so big and beautiful thats why i know she will be out of there in no time..and she is still little miss emo wild child heh...
yeah after that at like 7 chanti picked me up and nish, Katie, Charli and Ker were already in the car and we went to chantels little party thingy Jeremy was there but he wanted to be with Nina it was cute though. and we kinda chilled and took pics of ourselves in the bathroom haha we are strange mmm. yes. kinda. and then we did secret santas and i got like a football and chaocolate that i planne don giving my bro for x mas but nah that would be lame of me haha. then i had to go home mmm.i am exited for Ihop and ice skating and i am happy nish has settled =)
today i woke up early and got stuck with a needle at the docs.. eh nothing new i didnt faint though and then i came home and took a 1.5 mile jog but my legs hurt idk why though so i didnt go that far and then i talked with Nishy on the phone then Miss Mya and katie so it was all good..
and yeah me and Reece need to get Justines present like mmmm soon..
Tommarrow get toi go see Mya again her mom offered to take me so it is nice..
i have to go babysit now ickkk..but i need the mulaa..
<3 much love
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well its been awhile.
i have to say i am doing better
its been tough but knowing she is doing better really helps i went and saw her yesterday she could talk and she was oh so cute and understands everything.*sigh*. she is so gorgeous. but yeah school is tough i might as well drop out. me and jarod broke up. trust me im fine its not even a big deal lol. i am someone in NC's hero..awe how cute.idk why.i have become closer with alot of my friends and i am happy with that its good. friday.justines should be fun if i do say so. just got off the phone with one of my good friends i really wish they would stop trying to be so bad when i know inside they are so good.
and eh me right now idk im fine like idk im not gonna write about it in LJ..
<3
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well she is doing better, i have been going to see her like a ton. today when i went she had her eyes wide open i was so darn happy.
she was blowing kissess and giving high fives slowly but surely(thanks to enid and nikki), i asked her if she loved me and she squeezed my hand lol it was cute.
she goes to rehab tommarrow morning me and erika are going back tonite. we will visit her at rehab like her stalkers that we are haha.
yeah she is so strong she will be just fine i have faith in her<3
yeah other than that idk people really dissapoint me...
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it has been the roughest week eer and it doesnt feel like its getting better...
one of my favorite bestest people in the whole world is in the hospital and i feel like i have something to do with it people say i dont but i love her and just want her to talk to me and be 100% okay..
i cant express how i feel..words dont come close.. i want to be at the hospital right now with her but they arent allowing us there right now..me and erika are going crazy..my eyes hurt so much from all the tears..
all i keep thinking about is her right now i am nauseous always and i cant sleep i just hope she knows how much everyone loves her....
i need everyone to pray for Muyassar right now..
i love her and she needs to stay the strong mya everyone knows she is..
..she will be okay
..i am uselless of words right now ..thats all i have to say
<333 Mya stay strong gorgeous
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yeah it was a slow butt week but luckily it was only four days and next week its only 3 days :D!
..yeah yesterday i had drivers ed.
pretty easy watched armagedon? lol and then i had to go to my aunt lisas it was pretty fun and justine showed up..we did my cousin dans and phils make up in a competetion and dan(my guy) won! whoop whoop!
..shes kinda living with me this weekend..as always haha..
mike and jarod stopped by last night at like 9 30 ahh it was good..
then me and justine passed out right after they left at 12 and i had to come here and babysit but it wont be that long and its just cheyene shes so easy..
next week i think friday girls night out.should be fun.
i was talking with morgan yesterday and i think i need to tell this person but i always wonder what they will think of me after i tell them , if they will still like me or even think of me the same,everyone is so used to me being the same well me for so long, i just think sometimes people think someone has been so perfect for so long that they will always be the same way and oh nevermind i doubt anyone gets what im saying,i just scare myself sometimes, i have only told two and idk maybe it should just stay that way...
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so this week was sloww but yeah this weekend was good..
friday~went to the volleybal pizza party and then jarod picked me up and went to his house chilled with the family and then justine barged in but awee mike asked her out finally and gave her a kiss awee and yeah then i went to her house and chilledd then i went home
saturday~had a tournament at 7 in the morning ewee but we lost and yeah volleyball is now over.done.yepp. then after that my mom took me shopping got me some pants and a shirt and it was good old quality time and then we went downtown to my uncle scotts house and i chilled most of the time with my philmister lol it was good..went home
today~woke up nice and late ahh..chatted on the phone for a bit then me and justine went and saw the grudge together ahh so damn scaryy!!! but it was good then we were fighting while waiting for her mom to come and i wish i could say i wont but she beat the crap outta me ;/..ggrrrr! and yeah came home and its alll good oin tuesday i get to start drivers ed hopefully with morgan :)
<3 x 8767655646546
P.S. tommarrow is one month :D
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this week has been sloww as heck but luckily there were only four days of it!
yesterday me mike justine and jarod went out to Chipotle and a Haunted house after i had practice which was joyful as always and yeah it was a good day indeed.. got home at 11..passed out.
this morning i woke up at 6 thinking i had to babaysit but she canceled so i was up and just chilled with the bella, yeah then at like 12 today my dad took me and my sis for lunch/breakfeast i dont know i didnt eat all day ha! then after that my sweetest day was good even thought i didnt know there was such a thing but mm okay..i talked with jarod on the phone then he said he would pick me up bring me to his house and make me some warm soup and so he did haha it was good too and his dog is adoreable omgosh! and i totally whipped his butt in racing ;). it was grand. then he had work and took me to my aunts where i should have been and the losers were waiting for me outside what weirdos haha..
..yeah tommarrow i think myas house idk tho ..cant promise it
<3 you
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okay so my livejournal isnt working an di dont know why it wont let me sign in ever..i need hellpp??
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this week went by surprisingly fast..yesterday i had a TOUGH ass practice and then jarod picked me up and we went and saw Shark Tale with justine and mike(there so cute) it was a very good movie actually haha, but then we went to starbucks and i paid for once haha..then we went home justine just kinda chilled at my house lol and stayed the nite max popped obver later on that nite it was all good..
good day :).
then this morning me max and justine went out for breakfeast we left a two buck tip oh yeah we rock haha..
yeah later <3
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